Imperfect..<3

location: Bed

mood: depressed

music: Rihanna

Damnit I binged and do you know why?
My stupid parents arguing pissed me off and i went for a walk and ended up buyin LOADS of chocolate!!!!!


I feel ridiculously sick! My stomach is actually hurting!  ):


I think I need to change the way i'm looking at things, like instead of bingeing i'll just use this to my advantage as no one is paying any attention to me i should be able to get away with a lot more so my "fast" might finally last a while! 

I actually think i might be sick i ate way too much and my stomach cant handle it. I feel sooo ill  ):

I bet i gained like 10 pounds from this! I better not have! I promised myself that i would weigh 108 by friday and its wednesday tomorrow!

Because im not eating anything other than junk food i think my body is just storing the fat ;(

I just cant control myself these past few days! God, whats wrong with me.

I need shooting :( I hate my body so much and yet i do this!

Wtf :(